How do you deal with the superficialities around when you yourself are a part of it? I am really fed up of constantly trying to be something and I hardly notice it. There are really tiny gaps you get once in a day or weeks or may b months where you can just be yourself. I feel extremely claustrophobic when the distances between these gaps increase. I don’t want to make myself a subject constantly being examined under my own microscope. I don’t want to think twice before saying which movie I loved or hated. Don’t want to read the words again and again before putting something on my blog, don’t want to look into the mirror before I go out. It’s quite possible that this phase may last for a very brief period or there is a slim possibility for me to last in this complex jungle of social relationships.

It so happens that most of the times people are dead-on about spotting the flaws in us. But the reason for our resistance or anger is something else. We are agitated at the fact that how can this person see an error in my behavior and can’t see that he does the same mistake? And also… more importantly, our realization that same is the case with us!

what are we running from....
what are we running towards.....
or are we just.... Running?

It’s ironic how false ideas of morality drag us down to a level where we forget the basics like honesty, compassion and fail to empathize with another person on a human level…

आज माझे डोळे जरा वेगळेच दिसताएत...

आरसा तर तोच आहे कदाचीत...

सोनेरी किनारीचा उभट गोल...

आरसा आणि ओळखीचा तसा काही संबंध नव्हेच म्हणा...

गुणधर्मच असतो आरश्याचा तो...

जवळ येताना साफ़ होत जाणारं चित्र...

पण अंतर अगदीच संपलं तर विस्कंटून जातं मात्र...

डोळ्यावर वारंवार पाणी मारलं हो...

पण पटंतच नाहिए ओळख...

काजळ लावायचं राहुन गेला असेल कदाचीत...

पण आठवणींच्या ज्योतीलगत निरंतर जळणारी काजळी होतीच की...

असो.... होतं म्हणे असं कधी कधी...

होतही असेल...

आकाशातले पक्षी नाही.. पण पायाखालंची जमिन बघुनंही

चालावं लागतच बरयाचदा...

चालायचंय...

ओळखीचं काय आहे... पटेल कधीतरी...

डोळे मिटल्यावर बहुदा...

नभातील तारयांचा प्रकाश
मनात सामावून घेतला...

दुर जरी असंला तरी
प्रत्येक तारा ओळखीचा वाटला...

बरंच काही निसटून गेलंय
तूटणारया तारयाप्रमाणे...

पण अजुनही आभाळ भरलय तारयांनी...
अजुनही उरलय खरे जिणे....

(Written in 2006)